Just When I Think I Have Things Figured Out......

Just when I think I have everything figured out..............I realize I do not. In the span of a weekend I lost the security of my Mama Phillips and the security of my husbands job. My grandmother passed away last night. She was an amazing woman who has such a legacy of Love for her family and for her God. I miss her already. My husband lost his job, and the anger/fear/anxiety I expect to feel are not there. I have instead a peace that God has something in store for us. Don't get me wrong, I am not happy about this.......but I am peaceful. And as John Waller sings in his song I Am Waiting..............I am waiting on you Lord, and I am hopeful. Though it is painful, but patiently I will wait. I will move ahead bold and confident, taking every step in obedience. While I'm waiting, I will will serve you. While I'm waiting I will worship. I will not fade, I'll be running the race even while I wait. We ask for your prayers as we wait. Peacefully.

Where is the manual?

Why, oh why didn't our children come with a manual? A place where we can look at the troubleshooting chart and have a few options for each situation. Here I am. Flying out here not know which end is up sometimes. Did my parents feel like this? I must call again and let them know how much I love them and how sorry I am for......................so many things. This age is hard for me, 8 and 6. I am really good with the babies and good with the tween to teenagers; it is this time between the two I am struggling with. Well, my 6 year old just gave me a big unsolicited hug. The aftermath of a meltdown can can be brutal. (Her meltdown, not mine! yet!) I feel so helpless sometimes and want so badly to..............know what they need. From life, from me. I must get on to get dinner together. I am praying God will show me what to do and how to just be.

Hmmm.........

I think I just created a blog to keep my thoughts off the blog I created for my girls!!! So people don't have to plod through my words to find out about my girls, I decided to go for it and make another blog. This is easy. Maybe too easy. Oh, well. I have to be off and get laundry going and spread clean through the house. And yes, Mimi, I made my bed this morning, put my clothes away last night AND gave the girls a hug for you!